Fall foliage
By Maddux Morse \ Nov. 3, 2026
All photos courtesy of Maddux Morse.
As the leaves begin to turn this year, a slow feeling of sadness spreads within me like a drop of ink into a glass of water. I just finished celebrating my last homecoming as a student, and I feel a bittersweet sense of loss, knowing that the next time I see the orange and garnet floating down in the breeze, I will be an alumna.

Every year, my view changes a bit. Freshman year, I could look out my window with an overlook onto the pool of water that collects on the flat roof above the Proffitt Dining Hall. I could sit on a couch in the Pearson’s common room and watch leaves fall through the old windows.
Sophomore year brought a new perspective; a different view, and new trees to become acquainted with. I walked past the stinky tree next to Pearson’s every day (it’s the worst in the spring, when the fruit falls) on my way from Gibson to Thaw, where I have spent the vast majority of my time at Maryville College, as a social sciences double major who also works in the building. I have seen new picnic tables replace the rotten wood underneath the huge tree outside of Thaw Hall, and this year, the new tables took their first nap under a cozy blanket of leaves.

A few years ago, I wrote a poem about the foliage atop College Hill. It is one of the few things in Tennessee that brings me back to my childhood in Vermont.
I wrote about the beautiful leaves I collect every year, serving as bookmarks that will fall out in a pile of rust-colored rust years later. The other day, I found two preserved maple leaves in a folder from last year, faded but still clinging to a trace of the vibrant color that once was.


Last year, I familiarized myself with new trees, from the other side of campus. Now I walk past the sapling outside of Fayerweather on my way back to Beeson. Looking at this tree, I forget when it was planted. Definitely recently, most likely during my time at MC. When I look at the 8 foot sapling, I wonder how tall it will tower when I next come back.

This reflection makes me wonder what else will change on campus after my time as a student comes to an end. Will professors who have shaped my education be here in 10 years? Will the classmates I am walking the stage with come back to their alma mater in the years following our graduation? Which faces that I’ve gone through the last four years with will I forget by the time I see them next? And which ones will I never see again?

In my final year as a student, I know I will continue to face the reality of this chapter closing. My last Homecoming is one of the most bittersweet of my many MC lasts. As I witness thousands of leaves falling each day, I can sense the urge to let go; the urge to fly away, with the leaves… away from this place that I call home. And somehow, at the same time, I wish I could beg the leaves to hang on, to slow down for a moment and give me a bit more time to soak up my last autumn in Maryville.
